I waited to answer thinking about my four years as a high school student and what had changed. I answered that my fear of judgment had changed. As I started my high school experience I was scared beyond belief of the judgement of others, and what they thought about me. I always feared that what I was doing, or who I was as a person was being judged at every turn I took. And in many ways that was true, and still is true. Judgement isn’t something we can avoid. It is literally EVERYWHERE, even from those whom are closest to you. They may just be nice enough not to tell you their judgments. We as humans have this nature about us, that makes us judge. We might try hard not to do it, but we will. We will judge. It’s not something we can avoid. The difference is if we share that with others or not.
So while I am still scared of judgement, I have learned now, as and 18 year old going of to college, that you can either accept the fact that it happens, and keep doing you, or you can let it run your life. And in all honestly, sometimes the right judgement isn’t bad, you’ve just got to learn what judgement to listen to.
I have learned that if I am strong in my belief about God, Myself, and my choices, then judgment doesn’t seem as scary as it did four years ago.
So go out in to the world, and learn for yourself, who you are, and who you want to be, and don’t let others scare you into someone you aren’t or don’t want to be.
N.P